Sunday, November 25, 2007 9:01 PM
i have never thought of myself as someone who would only respect authority. i respect every single person i know, as far as i'm concerned.
and i treat different people differently. and if that labels me as a hypocrite, bootlicker, suck-up, or whatever, by all means.
i've treated subcomms and excos fairly; such as claudine, mark, adrian, eric, benchow, amanda, ashely, amos, isaac, and many others.
if you feel that i suddenly treat you differently, shouldn't you be wondering what happened that made me feel this way? instead of pushing everything to me getting close to ex-cos.
hitting, suaning. is something i do to everyone. excos, non-excos, whoever. pouring water? i thought it was all in the name of fun, and we both understood that. plus i have already apologised back then. why say nevermind when you actually mind and even digging it out now? i don't get you.
i'm bad at expressing myself, so i don't want to say anymore.
but maybe, just maybe, you should think of other reasons, besides this, of why i'm treating you the way i am now.
actually, i told myself to get over this already. but what really affected me was, you claim that a few others are tired of my attitude. which was really a shot in my heart.
but you know what. i shouldn't be down, no i shouldn't. there are so many others who are supporting me and believes that i am not this way. so many that it's maybe more than the few others you claim. if i were to stay this way, it's only disappointment to those who believe in me. just like how i was disappointed when you had looked at me this way. but my friends don't deserve this from me. my true friends are my motivation, and will always continue to be.
if you haven't communicate with me on a heart-to-heart basis, please don't assume anymore. get to know me, before you make your conclusion.
and that's the least you can do for anyone; give them a chance.
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i have a new blog @ livejournal. restricted to friends only. so make an account if you want to be added yeah? just ask me for the link. (:
was out with
hakim today. it was fun. (: thanks for the company and vice versa! =p we shall go to the arcade again yeah!
i have learnt that we really cannot please everyone in life, no matter how hard you try. one matter, can be perceived in many ways. one bad, can kill all the good you have.
